
I have a story for you, I'll try to keep it short. I am in a strange position. I am 29, male and Asexual, and emotionally Bi. However, I have a fascination with feet that's been with me since I can remember... I've always enjoyed holding people's feet, especially massaging them, warming toes, maybe nuzzling and kissing soles. I also suffer with foot pain, and my feet need massages and attention so I need to help myself with that out of necessity (which allowed me to learn more about caring for feet, which I enjoy). As an Ace person, I don't experience much sexual attraction at all, with the exception of sometimes when I'm playing these foot scenarios in my mind, the emotional hit is so strong I could possibly get a hard on, but it's not for sexual matters, I am still Asexual. If I try to make it sexual, I can't. It's also a rare occurence... On the other hand, the impulse to reach for people's feet is still present. I just have never really been attracted to the typical foot fetish activities, I tried all kinds of foot fetish related things and I've never been successful in being attracted. I am just Asexual... but I'm not sex repulsed, for example if I had a partner and they wanted to do something foot fetish related, I'd be fine with it.
So I ask you: how do you see this situation I'm in? I haven't been able to find a partner or even a friend with whom I could explore this (with the exception of a handful of people on very rare occasions irl). Usually the moment people find out I'm Asexual, they run off. I won't lie, I do sometimes wish someone would massage my aching feet, but I'm not complaining.

I'm fine with myself, but I feel like I don't fit anywhere.
I hope you're doing well
